Holly Madison Suicide: New Book ‘Down The Rabbit Hole’ Says Model Contemplated Suicide At Playboy Mansion

Holly Madison contemplated suicide while living at the Playboy Mansion, the model is opening up about those dark days in Down The Rabbit Hole, her new memoir. This is not the kind of tell-all one would expect coming from a model who spent a significant amount of time inside Hugh Hefner’s legendary Playboy Mansion. Sometimes, things are just not what they seem and this book intends to prove that.

Holly Madison‘s memoir Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny will be out on June 23 via Harper Collins and it’s already creating a lot of buzz. The promotion of the tell-all began in full force on Thursday when Us Weekly shared some details about the content. The promotional material sent to the publication read:

“Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”

The mention of the word “suicide” was enough to bring a lot of attention to Madison’s book. The media was surprised to find out that the Playboy Mansion was not just about sex and huge parties, and that some of these women went through very dark times. Holly Madison’s Down The Rabbit Hole paints a completely different picture from the glamorous image that was being sold for years.

Playboy Bunny Holly Madison nearly killed herself while living in the Playboy mansion http://t.co/O2xizYOuH5 pic.twitter.com/mUfb3gxQLj

— Metro Entertainment (@Metro_Ents) March 21, 2015

Holly Madison, 35, rose to fame in 2003 when she posed for the Playboy website. It was later revealed that she was in a relationship with the magazine’s founder, Hugh Hefner. The pair dated for about five years and in numerous interviews at the time, Madison stated that she wanted to have children with the 88-year-old.

Madison, along with Bridget Marquardt, and Kendra Wilkinson, landed a reality show called The Girls Next Door, which lasted for six seasons and turned the three women into big celebrities. After breaking up with Hefner, the Oregon native decided to take a different direction with her life.

In September 2013, Madison married businessman Pasquale Rotella at Disneyland; together, they have a daughter named Rainbow Aurora Rotella, who was born on March 5, 2013 in Las Vegas. The proud parents dated for close to two years before walking down the aisle. Madison, who is now in a better place in her life, thinks it is time to share portion of her real story with the rest of the world. She told Us Weekly:

“I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion. I think my stories will surprise people and I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life.”

The model and television personality has a loyal following on social media, her fans seem excited about reading the juicy tell-all. What are your thoughts on the mother of one’s “suicide” revelation? Are you interested in reading Holly Madison’s Down The Rabbit Hole?

@hollymadison I'm sure you will be adding best selling author to your resume! 😉

— Tony Thompson (@sucka4luv143) March 20, 2015

@hollymadison Already pre-ordered on amazon 🙂

— Salena (@SalenaCarroll) March 20, 2015

@hollymadison @usweekly can't wait to read the book, it's too bad we have to wait til june i wanna read it now u got any spare copies around

— Yalis Yokus (@YalisYokus) March 21, 2015

Here is Amazon‘s description of Holly Madison’s Down The Rabbit Hole book:

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.